The Wait

When we have waited for ‘a’ baby, we grow tired, impatient, wary of all the things we think we have done wrong, disgusted that all the things we have ‘done right’ aren’t working. We have ‘tried everything’ or we will…again. We might have suffered the loss of a baby, or many losses.. and so our longing gaze, can sometimes hold hurt, love, desperation, even envy. We keep looking towards old writs of ‘how to’. We look at the people with the round growing bumps, the glowing waddling pregnant women, or at those women through time cuddling the babies they have conceived and birthed “just like that” ‘soooo easily’. Maybe their story is not an easy one, but they have ‘persevered’ through hard times, or through assisted fertility, or through prayer faith and healing, or through drinking a million cups of fertility tea, or eating buckets of pineapple core and barrel loads of pre-conception vitamins. We ask them for advice about the mechanics… how many times a week to ‘dtd’ (do the deed)? When is the best time of the month to dtd? Did they stand on their head after dtd to keep the juices in? What did they feed their men? How much oestrogen / testosterone / progesterone / megaphone / Toblerone is too much or too little?

We also look at the ones who are upset at ‘falling’ pregnant, whatever their reasoning. We can’t believe that would ever be a reality. How might you not want a baby or not be ready for one???

In all of this.. is grief, coupled with a true sense of ‘something is missing’, true mother / father love and longing and often a true absolute view and knowing of a soul meant to be in the family.

In the desperation, sleeps someone or something you have felt for a time. Someone who is ‘there’… who you may have heard is a soul waiting ‘to be called’. Maybe you’ve had a reading or someone who knows stuff like this, who “feeeeels” things, has told you your womb needs cleansing or grounding or it needs to take flight somewhere… to un-anchor from its earthly burdens. You need to resolve your own traumas before the baby will ever conceive.. right? Maybe some affirmations or a ritual or two… And then, piled on top of that comes the run of advice about perimenopause, menopause… you’ve run out of eggs because you are too old or the fit between you and your aging partner isn’t right to biologically grow a baby… his weary sperm are sleepwalking towards your exhausted eggs. Biological clocks are ticking time-bombs. You need to ‘get real’ and think about making the best of the rest of your life. Desperation often leads to an ‘all or nothing’ attitude.. ‘the only thing that matters is the baby’, no matter how we get there and at whatever time it works to get an egg fertilised. The baby.. at all costs. No. More. Waiting.

And then a little bit more grief, hope, and prayer.. coupled with a true sense of ‘something is missing’, true mother / father love and longing and often a true absolute view and knowing of a soul meant to be in the family.

Maybe you haven’t waited long… maybe you are here reading this simply because you want to explore the true sense of something,, a true mother / father love and longing and often a true absolute view and knowing of a soul meant to be in the family.

In all our relative waits, we externalise the ‘baby’.

The ‘baby’ is unreachable, or we are unreachable. The ‘conception process’ is something to be figured out and processed towards. The ‘baby’ is like a separate body (or spirit) floating on a little dingy alongside your ship of discontent. So close, but so so far away. Obsession, exasperation, depths of despair… the arms outstretched. In the longing you will do anything to get to that dingy, sometimes you may even drown, or at least feel like you are drowning.

What if?

What if you heard that you could know the certainty of the baby as a soul-in-action (i.e. you can feel them as they are, right now)? What if you heard that this soul-in-action is the master creator of their own form (i.e. they lead the conception)? What if you heard that the babies coming now are in the mastery of their own conceptions as a timeless action, (i.e. they have always been preparing to conceive)? What if you were told these babies are the point of reference for themselves, the access, the view and the engagement in every moment - beyond wait. Nothing else. What if you were told that your baby is one of these babies? What if you were told there is nothing to do but listen? Yeah right... just another methodology / technique…

The distance between the longing for the baby with outstretched arms and holding the baby as that true absolute view and knowing of a soul meant to be in the family is down to a choice to listen. The choice simply lies between:

a) hearing the information as a concept, evaluating it as plausible, possible, valuable, thinking about it, including it in your box of tools towards conception

and

b) learning how to listen from the baby who is preparing to conceive.

Listening beyond wait

In any incoming souls work you can be given the information about these now incoming souls and their conceptions, but unless you listen from their body as a referent, it will only ever remain cognitive information… a conceptual theory .. ‘no biggie if I don’t actually listen, it doesn’t impact anyone or anything right?’ or ‘if I don’t listen it will happen anyway, if its meant to be, right?’

In essence, through listening, your whole orientation shifts from the point of a separate ‘you’ looking towards meeting the baby wrapped in the blanket after birth, to you meeting the baby now, in their timeless form, as your current cellular action. This changes the cellular information and currency of conception… it directly engages the conception point geometry and bio-physics.

The shift in referent towards the conception of these children is the step into the trust of them as the creators of their own form, and in that the shift in your cellular reality to ‘know’ and ‘receive’ rather than ‘reach’ and ‘make happen’. Your choice is literally everything. Because the simple choice to see and feel the conception of the baby, your baby, my baby, from the incoming soul directly, has precision and dynamics that are beyond anything you can control from the wait/reach. It fundamentally means you listen beyond ‘self’ and into the stunning cellular reality of these unified children. Wow!?

The cellular dynamics inherent in your baby’s motion, has form and integrity as a family, in a unified action. It has physics beyond any level of dimensional healing (that may have worked before, up to a certain point in time). And it has directive from the conception body itself.

The precise cellular engage to the children who are conceiving now, is specific. The baby who is conceiving in your womb, is not and never has been in wait. They have been in certainty. The meet of that, through a clear cellular choice is actually beyond any old technique you can use to ‘connect with’ them. The living breathing woven form is a mastery of universal geometry in action. The tiny face looking up at you from your breast is already seeing your face as mother. To ‘listen’, is to filter out all the competing information noise that pulls you from that direct gaze.

To ‘listen’ is to focus 100% on everything contained in that gaze and see the same view. It is to know the cellular touch in the entwined hands as a motion of one mother-baby body. It is to discover who this baby is, what they are bringing to this family at this time, in this form and how this form develops as a human body in all its matter. It is to see the magnitude of the soul preparing to conceive in a wide view, their fabric, their threads, their weave of form as intricately woven through and as you as the same fabric of form. This is the only point where ‘the only thing that matters is the baby’ is in pure truth. From knowing this ‘matter’ as your very cellular tissue form, you begin to know, more fluidly and in daily life, what is actually needed in your body (and the family body), what is the true nourishment for this child to know itself as embryo, foetus, baby, toddler, child, teenager, adult.. as all stages of himself timelessly weaving the known of the family through their fabric in truth and integrity. You can see the daily choices that you make are part of a bigger picture of unity that you didn’t even suspect was there. From that much bigger picture, you can begin to feel the story the child is telling, and allow this to lead you to where you are in meet of them at cellular conception levels.

Base

All of this juicy fluid territory is here to be explored. It is both known, as a universal physics, and in constant reveal day-to-day as a true base from which to function. The base code and geometry of our template to form and the exquisite essence of who your baby is, directing and revealing their intricate motion to conception.

Creator - Created

And this base has power! ….. Feminine and masculine reproductive systems… the geometry and currency of conception, the bio-physics of union… the one conception body of mother-father-baby has a form and circuitry we can know and truly experience… Understanding oneself as creator, the conception of a child, full in the known nourishment of the Incoming Soul who, from unity, is leading pure union as the divine generative nature of it’s human form as baby.